I want this year to be the best yet. I have a bunch of new things ahead of me. First off I'm starting a new school in a completely different field of study. Fashion is always something that I've admired but never had the confidence to pursue. I guess it took finding a little confidence in myself before I could put myself on the path that I want to be on.

I took alot even to just get me outta bed. I started the year off like any other, nothing special. I "made" resolutions that I had no intent of keeping, and just lived my life day by day.

Then reality hit.

And it hit hard. I don't really know how I got through it. First off losing Adam was harder than I thought. It took a lot of sleepless nights, crying, and anger and I still wasn't completely over it. He was my first love, but I never really understood the hurt and the pain that goes along with it. But hopefully I'll be blessed enough to fall in love again. Even though it hurt so much, I wouldn't trade that feeling for the world. No matter how much love can hurt, just those few seconds when you can really feel it make it worthwhile. And anyways its called a first love because its a stepping stone to true love. It honestly feels good to say that I still love him, and that will probably never change, but I'm NOT in love with him anymore.

I felt like I was living in a bubble through out most of the year, I felt like just one wrong move and my world would pop. Just like that everything would fall apart. I'm not proud of everything that I did over the past year, although it wasn't really anything to be ashamed of. I still lied to some people that I care about. I am sorry for that.

I rekindled some old friendships, definitely found some new ones, and strengthened current ones. I found strength that I never knew I had. I learned to say no, more than once. I also figured out how to walk away. It's not something that I plan to do constantly, but its a skill to have. I've never been one to walk away before, but I couldn't go back to feeling like I wasn't worthy enough. I had to get away. I'm not perfect, and I'll be the first one to admit it.

For 2008, I plan to not only be a better person, but to also get my ass into gear. I can still be a good person and succeed myself. I deserve to live my dreams too. And that's what I plan on doing. This year is going to be devoted to not only making myself a person that I can be proud of all around, but also pursuing my own dreams. I'm not going to put myself on hold for anyone else right now. It's my time, and there's no other time like the present.