Thursday, December 4, 2008
Soo... do I really have to?
The end of the semester is in sight, and I can't wait!! It's been one of the easier semesters I've faced so far. There's still quite a few things barring my way though. The first one is finishing this dress for the fashion show and then writing the papers that go with it for Textiles. It really shouldn't be too bad once I get started on it. I will say that the fabric I decided on is going to make it look like a wedding dress. This wasn't my intention, but I'm happy with it. I absolutely love this brocade. And should I ever get married, I'd probably want this material (or something close to it for my dress).
It's really weird even considering want I would want for this hypothetical wedding of mine. Honestly, I've never even thought about the possibility until a little over a year ago. It's not that I never wanted to, but mostly that the thought just really hadn't crossed my mind before then. I hadn't been in a real relationship yet, and up to then no one I knew was engaged or getting married. I still felt as if I had plenty of time to find a good man and settle down. I still do, just is still weird when I hear about girls that I went to school with getting engaged and married.
I still feel like there's so much more that I need to learn and experience for myself before I get tied down. I want to know that I'm not exactly taking a leap of faith. I want to be as free of the "what ifs" and "maybes." I want to know that whoever it is, is going to be there for me entirely through everything. I don't want someone that's going to be skirting around behind my back.