Monday, November 26, 2007
I Want You To Want Me...
Shelter Me
By: Amber
Hold me in your arms
even if just to chase old wounds away
Shelter Me
Let me know how you feel
I want it all to come crumbling down.
I want to know what makes you tick.
Shelter Me
Don't hold back
Or there's nothing left to gain
Nothings guaranteed more than today.
Shelter Me
There's no other way to make this work
Just hold me here
We'll know no fear
Shelter Me
Be my rock
Hold me steady
Won't you be my strength?
Shelter Me.
I don't know really how to write poetry. I just put the words on to paper. I can't really figure out to say what I mean out loud... although that's all I really want to do. I want you to know me, I want you to know what I feel. You really are the world to me. I don't know how else to say it. I know my actions don't portray what I say, and they should. Honestly, just say that word, its all up to you. All you have to do is decide. I'm the one that screwed up. Don't put it on your shoulders. I love you, and you only. Just say the word, and I'll be only yours.
Cakes ♥
10:05 PM
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Monday, November 19, 2007
Who'd a Thunk It?
Ever get one of those feelings when everything is working against you? I'm going through that right now. It's prolly not as bad as I think at this moment, but give me a break..I'm exhausted ha ha. So I've been wanting to have this talk with someone for a few days now, and I'm pretty sure that he knows it. Its not to horrible of a talk, but the longer it gets put off the harder it is for me to keep a level head. I love him, I really do, but I'm not going to make a trip down to see him without getting what I want to say out on the table first. Is that too much to ask? I don't think so. I know how I am, and if I don't get it out while it's something small (and we all know that it's hard for me to say anything at all) it's going to blow up and I'm going to make a bigger thing out of something small. I want a break. The best thing in the world right now would to be wrapped up in the arms of someone who cares for me, but it's not looking like that's in the stars for me. I'm sick of feeling like I'm not good enough. I know that I am. And I know that he cares for me, but I'm having a hard time feeling it. I'd like for him to remember that I want to talk to him. And that I can't always work on his schedule. It's a
relationship, it's give and take. I don't know how else to put it.
I'm sorry for all the bitching but I want to get it out of my head before I go to bed. I'll have a more happy post tomorrow I hope.
Cakes ♥
12:58 AM
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Thursday, November 15, 2007
Introduction
I've decided that I need to take time and actually post what I feel. I'm sick of being fine one moment and then feel comatose for thinking too much. I will make one promise concerning this blog, I plan to be fair to those involved. I will do my best not to mention names. That is my respect for you. There are many factors as to why I ahve started this. I want first to periodically update my life to my friends. Second, I'd like to get more out of my head and into words. I'm more complex than people give me credit for. I'm not all smiles and stars in her eyes. I have ambitions, goals, and most of all feelings. I'm sick of hiding behind a mask. Also, I've decided that I want people to actually have a way to see into my thinking process. Apparently I'm a hard one to peg when it comes to how I see things. I'll give you fair warning now. I don't plan to hold back on how I feel.
You're in my world now, Enter if you dare.
Cakes ♥
2:34 AM
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